Stay sane..

[I made a new blog, but I'm keeping this one as well, to myself.

This is more deeper, I can write anything and shake my shoulders free.

This is the therapy blog, I guess. Another one is the more interesting one, a happy one. The surface.]

What I wanted to write here is that I feel so f****' confused right now.

I met a guy and I fell in love with him... then I'm gone and things get complicated. I live far away.. and I'm not sure if I can deal with this long-distance relationship... and all this heartache it costs me.

Although, I try to keep it up but keep my head cool anyways. He is far away so I have my own life... but still of course, I will talk to him. If everything goes good, maybe I can handle all this.

I'm gonna start a new life anyways. I will step out of my comfort zone and get a fresh start. I just hope I don't blow it off immediately... I'm feeling that something very crazy is gonna happen very soon... I can just beg myself so that I can keep myself in control.

It's gonna be partying... meeting new people and start a newlife in a new city.

Please, let me stay sane..

Sweet times, a bitter end

Hellohey, I've been busy these couple weeks.

It's been great to show around Helsinki and Finland with Yuuki! We also went to our cottage; fishing, rowing a boat and picking up blueberries from the island on a lake. Yesterday we went to Linnanmäki amusement park and the day before we visited Suomenlinna. He is a great guy!! Just too bad he is younger than me..

We have done so much here, the best was probably last week when we went to a forest in a middle of the night to see shooting stars!! I loved it and I saw so many!
I've been feeling very good and even hyper. Also, I have learned Japanese and a lot about Japanese culture. I'm gonna be very sad when he goes home the day after tomorrow..byaaa-

Today we are gonna make sushi!
Also, I finally get my lovely cat back today.

Mata neeee~