Darkside

Hey people,

I'm back to the dark side.
I've been trying to write this earlier, many times.. but somehow couldn't.

I've been pretending that everything is good.
That everything is on control.
That I'm alright.

Because that's what I want to be.
That's what I tell to everyone.

No one can see the real pain.
They cannot know how I feel.
How much I try to be
good
in everything.


It's an inner fight.

And I'm losing.


Because I cannot see myself anymore.

Am I somewhere?

Am I somewhere beneath all that greasy skin?


Whose blood?

Whose bones?

Whose.... heart

is beating?