I feel like cutting my face off

Once again, I realize how ugly I am.
Mostly I think myself pretty, but then the truth comes out every time I see some pictures of me. I'm so ugly !
Yeah, not sure if I get over this... :''DDDD but it's the truth.

Well I'm also short. If you cannot be tall, and cannot be beautiful, you can still be thin. So that's all I got left. My best kind of beauty that seems to be so fucking far away.

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I realized some cool Radiohead songs from my iTunes that I've not listened before :o some of them are pretty good.

Ohhhh and I went to library and got some movies (5). One of them I watched already, it's called 'Dirty Pretty Things' and I thought it was a pretty good thriller. And there was my favorite french lady in a big role ^^

Tonight I will go to the Circus, which is a club in Helsinki. My friend asked me there, and i've never been there.

Have a good night everyone ~

A disaster

今日､　まるでぶたみたいにたくさん　食べました

＞'':

I'm so angry at myself.
Enough said.
To punish myself I have to clean my room

right now!

Nightmare continues..

I have tried

so fucking many times

Where did I lose my self control?

I should stop eating totally.


She said: ''Have you lost weight?''

AAARGGGGGGH!!

She said: ''Don't diet too much.''

Me: ''I have GAINED kilos.''

She really pisses me off.

I DIET AS MUCH AS I WANT !


I need to get out of here.. sooner the better. Here I only go insane.