I've been playing a tourist guide and showing around Helsinki to a French girl. She is great! And we have had so much fun together! I really like her.
She is also learning Finnish so I do my best to help her. We have been to Suomenlinna, Korkeasaari (zoo), Helsinki churches and went to a beach today. Tomorrow we will be visiting a garden and the stone church.
Also, of course shopping!
just.. one another day I also met my friend.. It was fun with him!
Although now he doesn't answer my messages so I'm afraid he is mad at me.
I'm gonna lose him too.
Well, at least it's gonna be f*cking easy to leave this country on the day when I go. I'm not gonna miss people anymore and No one is gonna miss me. So happy end I guess......
Showing posts with label friends. Show all posts
Showing posts with label friends. Show all posts
Friday, July 30, 2010
Saturday, July 24, 2010
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I really hate people right now.......
My so called 'friend' has been treating me like a shit everytime she is dating someone. She always cancels our meetings and drangs her dates with us.. I really can't stand it but i don't wanna lose her though because I really don't have many friends. And I always pretend that I don't care and that it doesn't hurt me when she cancels...
Although now I told her how I feel and she is just saing she is sorry but you know what*? I think I really are not gonna see her that much anymore... If she wants me around, she will show it to me. I will make her beg !
Other people then... they are just being mean to me or like teasing me with their stupid jokes that I really don't want to hear.
I might be sensitive but for someone who is sensitive himself shouldn't be saying those things to me because he should know how they hurt !
So is it any surprise that I'm all alone? guess not because everyone is just being an asshole and doesnt really care about me at all.
Those two that are the closest ones for me, make me feel like shit all the time. It really doesnt help me...
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Is this summer?!
It's still kind of cold outside.. and has been most of the time this month. Looks like this is a crappy summer.. weather is bad and I have no one nice person to hang around with.
Last couple weeks nothing has really happened. I went to x-ray my knee, my friend had a graduation party in a restaurant, I bought a dress to take with me to Greece and I went to see a movie with my mom. I hope this is not what it's gonna be the whole time until my life restarts in September...
Well, I'm glad to visit Greece in two weeks, right after Midsummer. I will meet some Greek people as well, so it's gonna be fun and a lot of sunshine.
Ohhh I forgot to mention I met a new friend, T. She studies in the University I will be attending so I was so glad to met her and ask all those questions hhahaha. It's great to know her!!
I already booked the flight tickets to Scotland ^^ I'm so happy about that! And for sure, can't wait!!!
Until that, I will continue my passive living through books, magazines, computer games, movies and internet.. bbbah -____-
Last couple weeks nothing has really happened. I went to x-ray my knee, my friend had a graduation party in a restaurant, I bought a dress to take with me to Greece and I went to see a movie with my mom. I hope this is not what it's gonna be the whole time until my life restarts in September...
Well, I'm glad to visit Greece in two weeks, right after Midsummer. I will meet some Greek people as well, so it's gonna be fun and a lot of sunshine.
Ohhh I forgot to mention I met a new friend, T. She studies in the University I will be attending so I was so glad to met her and ask all those questions hhahaha. It's great to know her!!
I already booked the flight tickets to Scotland ^^ I'm so happy about that! And for sure, can't wait!!!
Until that, I will continue my passive living through books, magazines, computer games, movies and internet.. bbbah -____-
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Friday, April 30, 2010
Vappu and all this crap
Today is Vappu and I'm doing nothing.
Exept I just ate 3 donuts ! My mom made them so I couldn't say no.
Things just got out of hand when I first got information that my friends go away to Tallinn and then I started to think about going out and chill in Helsinki like usually, but it's so cold that the idea of walking around/sitting in the park in the cold air doesn't sound any good.
Ohh and I heard that my friends are not going to Tallinn and that they party at my friends house. I almost ask if I could go too, but then I though that lately going there just makes me either eat way too much sweets or feel like an outsider so I decided not to ask. Also, they didn't ask me to come in the first place so maybe they don't even want me there.. Which is kind of crap.
I'm very easy guest. I don't usually eat much and I can always behave and see if it's the time for me to leave. Also, I don't whine or stuff like that, I'm just happy to be a guest!!
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Ohhh I almost forgot !! Yesterday I went to see a theatre show♥ it was called ''Amijima'' and it was pretty good!
I liked the kimono's they were wearing and the traditional japanese music as well as the story itself, eventhough it was a little simpleminded. Still romantic at the end!
Exept I just ate 3 donuts ! My mom made them so I couldn't say no.
Things just got out of hand when I first got information that my friends go away to Tallinn and then I started to think about going out and chill in Helsinki like usually, but it's so cold that the idea of walking around/sitting in the park in the cold air doesn't sound any good.
Ohh and I heard that my friends are not going to Tallinn and that they party at my friends house. I almost ask if I could go too, but then I though that lately going there just makes me either eat way too much sweets or feel like an outsider so I decided not to ask. Also, they didn't ask me to come in the first place so maybe they don't even want me there.. Which is kind of crap.
I'm very easy guest. I don't usually eat much and I can always behave and see if it's the time for me to leave. Also, I don't whine or stuff like that, I'm just happy to be a guest!!
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Ohhh I almost forgot !! Yesterday I went to see a theatre show♥ it was called ''Amijima'' and it was pretty good!
I liked the kimono's they were wearing and the traditional japanese music as well as the story itself, eventhough it was a little simpleminded. Still romantic at the end!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Somebody save me...
Today I enjoyed some Ben & Jerry's ice cream when they gave it for free in the city. Delicious !
I also attended some boring babysitter meeting where they told us about kids & media. Well it was alright...
Now I'm home and got nothing to do. Well it's kinda late so I could go to sleep, but tomorrow I'm all free and got nothing to do.
So I'm thinking this is how it's gonna be... whole summer?
Well, lately I got some new PS2 games so I could play those.. for example Singstar and sing here all by myself : DD
And I have some j-dramas that I want to watch... but it's still not good. I want company!
Someone who listens me and doesn't treat me badly... Just the thing is that all those people cannot come. They either don't wanna see me or cannot come otherways.
i could go to the city and meet a friend, but the thing is that lately all my so called friends have been just annoying and boring.
Like I said before, I have pretty much bad kind of friends, those that don't really care a shit if I die tomorrow. I need friends that I can trust and friends that I know they like me, whatever I do.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Sushi !
Today's word is definitely Sushi.
I went to couple Asian food stores with my asian friend and bought some more stuff to make sushi.
Also I know now where can I find a cheap japanese green tea bottles which I absolutely love !
At my friends place we made sushi today : ) we put tuna fish, cucumber, eggs and carrots(!) in and it was delicius ! Although it was a slow process when we first had some trouble with the rice (that's what u get when there are 3 people in the small kitchen and the fourth person (a guy) is just hanging around and asking questions, making some funny but quite keep-your-mouth-shut comments and just eating all stuff he can find.. A little bit DISTRACTION, ehhhhh?! And then the fifth person just swearing i nthe front of the mirror.
Nahh, it was quite nice to meet my friend's sister's boyfriend, and also that there was some real life going on in that house. I'm so used to just empty and silent house so I really enjoyed having some drama around hahahaha! And I laughed a lot and just remembered how lucky I actually am when not being in the relationship like that anymore.
So it's all good.
Just my friend's friend got a little scared when it was so noisy. I met her for the first time and wow that girl is silent and shy. I thought I was shy or what but now I think again... and wow. People are just so different. But yeah, she was cute for sure, even though being so silent ! Or maybe just because of that...
And I remembered how I used to be so silent also. I'm just glad how much I have changed from that and it makes me smile.
Although, I can still be very shy around some people. But I'm totally ok with that.
Just the bad thing was that the friend of my friends didn't like the sushi that much. She barely eat one piece... and my friend also ate just couple. But I liked them ! They were really good ! Next time when I'm making those, I gotta get some tuna as well.
Still, I have to say that personally, my favorite sushi is that with REAL HUGE FISH PIECE on the top of it -sushi, with good rice and a little tiny bit of wasabi beneath the fish.
I just love my mom when she comes from work with that cute little sushi pack with her that includes 10 little sushi pieces, including some very good salmon and red tuna fish and some while fish one that I have no idea what's the name of the fish.. and it has even a little cute fish shaped soy sauce bottle with it ! It makes me smile the whole little package ! It looks so delicious!
When I got home I found a job that I can hunt next. Just guess what kinda restaurant is that !
Yayyy, shopping tomorrow.
Ohh and btw, I want to go see AVATAR, the movie !!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
She turned 20
My friend had a birthday today ^^
AWWWW! I love birthdays! There's always cake and a lot of people, people are mostly happy even then.
I bought her a present of course,
including; a shirt, some make up stuff and earrings. She seemed to like it and she even put the shirt on right away, and it seemed to fit well.
There were six of us and her. Some people couldn't come because there is a strike that makes some busses cancel their drives (since today after 6PM..) mainly in Espoo but of course also my bus line belongs to that company so I had to walk today from the metro station -__- it was alright though, because I run into one girl that I know so she walked with me the half of the trip. Also.. it would have been nice if it wouldn't have rain that shitty snow that wet my hair and face... hahahah!
BTW, I was a little proud of myself when I didn't eat that much candy at the party. Just a little bit and couple of cookies. I didn't even touch the chips. Just a little bad thing was to drink couple of ciders... they weren't even light ones... but how could I say NO to free drinks and when everyone else is drinking them?!
We didn't do much, just talked and played some games. I didn't talk that much with three girls I didn't know before, but it just seemed that they weren't that interested in me. That's kinda stupid though, I was nice to them and smiled and tried to talk to them. But well, they didn't seem to be in the same page with me anyways, hahahah! They all just ate a lot... ewwww. And didn't talk that much.
I also met my friend's pets. She has a dog and a sweet cat that I fell in love with ! She is soo tiny looking and black ^^ Love it! I almost took that kitty with me.. Their dog was pretty nice one too, so cute, a little chubby and didn't bark a lot ^^ She is a Spitz type of dog, brownish-grey.
After, some of us (basically me, my two friends and the birtday heroine and her friend) went to the closest bar which was a pretty nice place, with biliard table. We just laughed so much and had great time. Then I decided to leave because of the trouble with the public transportation tonight so my friend drove me to the station and I got home.
It was a great day!! I probably see some of them again on this friday. Especially I liked how I spent some time with my newest friend today. She really is a type of girl I like and not boring at all. I'm so glad already that my friend introduced us couple weeks ago!!
PS. Yesterday I bought a pair of awesome jeans ^^ I just made a promise to myself that I won't use them before loosing a couple kilos first. That will keep!! As much as I like them.....
Nightynights.
AWWWW! I love birthdays! There's always cake and a lot of people, people are mostly happy even then.
I bought her a present of course,
including; a shirt, some make up stuff and earrings. She seemed to like it and she even put the shirt on right away, and it seemed to fit well.
There were six of us and her. Some people couldn't come because there is a strike that makes some busses cancel their drives (since today after 6PM..) mainly in Espoo but of course also my bus line belongs to that company so I had to walk today from the metro station -__- it was alright though, because I run into one girl that I know so she walked with me the half of the trip. Also.. it would have been nice if it wouldn't have rain that shitty snow that wet my hair and face... hahahah!
BTW, I was a little proud of myself when I didn't eat that much candy at the party. Just a little bit and couple of cookies. I didn't even touch the chips. Just a little bad thing was to drink couple of ciders... they weren't even light ones... but how could I say NO to free drinks and when everyone else is drinking them?!
We didn't do much, just talked and played some games. I didn't talk that much with three girls I didn't know before, but it just seemed that they weren't that interested in me. That's kinda stupid though, I was nice to them and smiled and tried to talk to them. But well, they didn't seem to be in the same page with me anyways, hahahah! They all just ate a lot... ewwww. And didn't talk that much.
I also met my friend's pets. She has a dog and a sweet cat that I fell in love with ! She is soo tiny looking and black ^^ Love it! I almost took that kitty with me.. Their dog was pretty nice one too, so cute, a little chubby and didn't bark a lot ^^ She is a Spitz type of dog, brownish-grey.
After, some of us (basically me, my two friends and the birtday heroine and her friend) went to the closest bar which was a pretty nice place, with biliard table. We just laughed so much and had great time. Then I decided to leave because of the trouble with the public transportation tonight so my friend drove me to the station and I got home.
It was a great day!! I probably see some of them again on this friday. Especially I liked how I spent some time with my newest friend today. She really is a type of girl I like and not boring at all. I'm so glad already that my friend introduced us couple weeks ago!!
PS. Yesterday I bought a pair of awesome jeans ^^ I just made a promise to myself that I won't use them before loosing a couple kilos first. That will keep!! As much as I like them.....
Nightynights.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Wiikendo
This weekend was quite nice ^^ just Sunday really sucks..
On Friday I went to DTM with my friends. I had fun even though, it was sad that one of my friends (the one I maybe most rely on at the moment..) had to leave and she couldn't come at all.. Well I had my another lady friend and she also brought her friend who I've once-seen already, so she wasn't just someone random new face. Actually, I really like that girl and I hope that she also considers me as a friend as well.
Then two of my so-called-friends came too (actually I invited them, just because they always whine that I don't wanna see them) and I realized that was a dumb thing to do after all.. Well, it was nice to see them again but it's just sad to notice that they have not change at all... so I would rather just let them be and stay away.
Still I don't like the fact that they whined after I've left that I didn't even spend time with them at the club.. WTF?! I was with my other friends at the club and we tried to stay together with them but they always just disappearred or wanted to seperate... so they are just being stupid and I don't think that I was the one who was IGNORING.
Well, I was so glad that my friend's friend was being so nice to me ^^ she even bought me a snaps : D and then two other girls just came and talked to me.. hahahha, they were sooo drunk.
I didn't drink actually. Just the one that my friend bought me. I felt like I should have, it would have been much more fun, but I had a reason not to.
I was at home at 2.30AM or so. When I took my shoes off, I realized how hard it was to stand up. Those shoes just killed my feet, but at the same time I loved them so much that I want to wear them soon again.
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Next day I slept in. When I woke up I made a salad for me and my mom. Sooon after that I went off to movies. I saw もののけ姫 - Mononoke Hime (Prinsessa Mononoke).
It was just a little frustrating how people eat popcorn and candy in front of your nose and you can smell it but just drink your cola and sit straight..
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Today I just tried to download a song but I couldn't find it anywhere so I decided to use some code to get it from Nokia music store
but then wtf, how frustrating it was when first you have to download some shit programs to even download it and then it says some error and it takes so many trys to get it on my computer and then I realize that it's just some shitty thing that the song only works in that stupid Nokia player ! -___-
yeah right... You really never get anything for free, brrrrrrrr.
I also watched a swedish vampire movie that was actually not so well-made as you can guess, but still actually good in it's all simplicity and interesting story : D
On Friday I went to DTM with my friends. I had fun even though, it was sad that one of my friends (the one I maybe most rely on at the moment..) had to leave and she couldn't come at all.. Well I had my another lady friend and she also brought her friend who I've once-seen already, so she wasn't just someone random new face. Actually, I really like that girl and I hope that she also considers me as a friend as well.
Then two of my so-called-friends came too (actually I invited them, just because they always whine that I don't wanna see them) and I realized that was a dumb thing to do after all.. Well, it was nice to see them again but it's just sad to notice that they have not change at all... so I would rather just let them be and stay away.
Still I don't like the fact that they whined after I've left that I didn't even spend time with them at the club.. WTF?! I was with my other friends at the club and we tried to stay together with them but they always just disappearred or wanted to seperate... so they are just being stupid and I don't think that I was the one who was IGNORING.
Well, I was so glad that my friend's friend was being so nice to me ^^ she even bought me a snaps : D and then two other girls just came and talked to me.. hahahha, they were sooo drunk.
I didn't drink actually. Just the one that my friend bought me. I felt like I should have, it would have been much more fun, but I had a reason not to.
I was at home at 2.30AM or so. When I took my shoes off, I realized how hard it was to stand up. Those shoes just killed my feet, but at the same time I loved them so much that I want to wear them soon again.
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Next day I slept in. When I woke up I made a salad for me and my mom. Sooon after that I went off to movies. I saw もののけ姫 - Mononoke Hime (Prinsessa Mononoke).
It was just a little frustrating how people eat popcorn and candy in front of your nose and you can smell it but just drink your cola and sit straight..
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Today I just tried to download a song but I couldn't find it anywhere so I decided to use some code to get it from Nokia music store
but then wtf, how frustrating it was when first you have to download some shit programs to even download it and then it says some error and it takes so many trys to get it on my computer and then I realize that it's just some shitty thing that the song only works in that stupid Nokia player ! -___-
yeah right... You really never get anything for free, brrrrrrrr.
I also watched a swedish vampire movie that was actually not so well-made as you can guess, but still actually good in it's all simplicity and interesting story : D
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Hell is breaking...
As always, this is not gonna be something nice. I will just try to keep myself sane by writing about it.
So I invited couple of friends to celebrate Valentine's day or something like that and the person I really wanted to come, well obviously, he didn't come. I really hate that when I do some effort and try my best and then people don't appreciate anything...
Well it was nice to see two of my friends, until... the another one's new girlfriend arrives...
Well I just have to say that the girl was just amazingly annoying.... well I don't want to say that she is horrible or whatever because it just makes me look like jealous person but whatever I really wanted just leave very soon. Hehhe, I have to say that probably the main reason why she was so annoying is just that the fact that she is couple years younger than all of us so she is just still a teenager so in another words.. pain in the ass.
Writing this makes me feel like a super adult now : D Well, at least I can behave and appreciate people around me and not being so self-centered.... OMG.
So yeahhhhhh I really can't stand it when people who are dating are all the time all over each other. I mean it's okay to kiss and stuff but not all the time and in front of other people's eyes. At least I don't like doing that... and even more, I really don't want to see that.. So I had to say; ''Get a room you two'' for couple times as a joke. Well for me it wasn't a joke at all, I just didn't want to be rude.
But I'm very sick of being nice to everyone..... but I guess it's just me and that in some level I feel like that by being nice I make people like me more. I guess it's true, but so often I feel like I'm being used and just that all my goodness for other people just goes into waste.
Because I still feel that I'm so much better than many of my friends. Because actually, I can't really say they are my friends. They are just a bunch of assholes....... who only care about themselves.
So now I'm thinking to say goodbye to one or two of my friends again. I just hate the feeling that they are just playing behind my back and just acting nice. To tell the truth, they really don't care about me at all. And I need to feel that I'm appreciated because I really appreciate them. They just don't deserve it...
So I guess it's saying goodbye to a one of my oldest friend and one that I really liked once.
It's kinda sad but I really am rather by myself than with someone that I cannot trust or who doesn't care a shit about me. So さようなら。
So I invited couple of friends to celebrate Valentine's day or something like that and the person I really wanted to come, well obviously, he didn't come. I really hate that when I do some effort and try my best and then people don't appreciate anything...
Well it was nice to see two of my friends, until... the another one's new girlfriend arrives...
Well I just have to say that the girl was just amazingly annoying.... well I don't want to say that she is horrible or whatever because it just makes me look like jealous person but whatever I really wanted just leave very soon. Hehhe, I have to say that probably the main reason why she was so annoying is just that the fact that she is couple years younger than all of us so she is just still a teenager so in another words.. pain in the ass.
Writing this makes me feel like a super adult now : D Well, at least I can behave and appreciate people around me and not being so self-centered.... OMG.
So yeahhhhhh I really can't stand it when people who are dating are all the time all over each other. I mean it's okay to kiss and stuff but not all the time and in front of other people's eyes. At least I don't like doing that... and even more, I really don't want to see that.. So I had to say; ''Get a room you two'' for couple times as a joke. Well for me it wasn't a joke at all, I just didn't want to be rude.
But I'm very sick of being nice to everyone..... but I guess it's just me and that in some level I feel like that by being nice I make people like me more. I guess it's true, but so often I feel like I'm being used and just that all my goodness for other people just goes into waste.
Because I still feel that I'm so much better than many of my friends. Because actually, I can't really say they are my friends. They are just a bunch of assholes....... who only care about themselves.
So now I'm thinking to say goodbye to one or two of my friends again. I just hate the feeling that they are just playing behind my back and just acting nice. To tell the truth, they really don't care about me at all. And I need to feel that I'm appreciated because I really appreciate them. They just don't deserve it...
So I guess it's saying goodbye to a one of my oldest friend and one that I really liked once.
It's kinda sad but I really am rather by myself than with someone that I cannot trust or who doesn't care a shit about me. So さようなら。
Monday, January 4, 2010
What's new.
It's been a while.
It's all very frustrating right now.
I cannot understand people. Mainly guys. I've lost two friends lately, just because they are so ridiculous to tell me they like me even though i have no interest in them in that way. Did I do something wrong? WHAT_THE_F***!
My nature is to be happy and friendly mostly, so that doesn't mean anything... well that's alright, people make mistakes -- but why do I always have to be the one who pays it all?! I've lost two great friends...
And I'm sorry to be picky, but I don't wanna date someone that I don't have deeper feelings for ! Friends... why some people just think it's enough? Rather disappear totally? I think only a LOSER would do such a thing... And why the **** they can know if I happend to change my mind after a while? Am I not good enough to fight for? Just lose your hope just like that.. what loosers have I met.
Yeahyeahyeha... My New Year was great btw ^^
Just, a little drama.
And there we go.. I'm facing another problem again : DDDDDD wtf?!
Wellll there is my ex that I thought I have still feelings for... well, in last couple days I found out that I was wrong.
Then there is this girl who seems to have a crush on me. She sends me messages a lot and tells how she doesn't usually dream about anyone.
Well, I told her that I'm not ready and that we'll see....
She doesn't seem to understand.
Well, today I found out why.. One of my friends told her NOT TO GIVE UP ON ME ! wtf ! I was so mad at her and told her how she did a wrong thing and only causes me more problems with that.. Well, she doesn't seem to understand. Seems like she only wants to get rid of me so she wants me to date someone. But _no_way_ !
I'm just a little afraid that again, I will lose a friend because that... If that would happen, I would have close to no one anymore.
Well I had lots of fun with those two at new years. We sang karaoke (Singstar, lol), hang out in her place, set couple fireworks and went to the city. Only bad thing was that it was freeeeezing cold. And that I almost lost my nerves with the girl.
I gave up for candies and chocolate, and so it will be till Easter (when I will eat chocolate egssss for sure). I gave te rest of my Christmas chocolates away, hahaha.
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These cold winter days I'm just gonna isolate myseld and just be in the house with myself. I'm just sick of people right now, and I don't want to see how freak I must be when no one understands anything about me. Or even tries.
Goodbye friends, hello movies, games, books, computer and singing by myself.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Wishing stairs
I spent Friday with my favorite person ever. We went to a store, bought carrots and candy.
We didn't do much actually, just talking, drinking a little and watching TV. I think we both enjoyed just spending time together, it didn't matter we didn't actually talk so much this time. We just felt we didn't have to.
She asked me questions though, older things that I even forgot that I told her once. I was suprised she still remembers them, I barely remember myself.
I realize that this girl is someone I never want to disappear anywhere. She has to be somewhere quite near that I can be sure she is alright.
We watched a korean scary movie called ''Wishing stairs''.
I really liked it. It wasn't scary though, just very tragic.
And ballet dancers there, ahhhhhhh ^^
I got home very late because it takes so long way from Vantaa to here : D
I didn't feel like sleeping so I didn't.
After sleeping two hours I woke up when my mom comes to my room and tells me my brother is coming. It was 5'am so I was pretty much dead.....
After that I couldn't sleep for hours -__-
Also I was shopping in Helsinki with my mom yesterday.
I found shoes, yay!
Also she gave me money and I bought two necklesses and a little cute bag.
Loving it! : )
We didn't do much actually, just talking, drinking a little and watching TV. I think we both enjoyed just spending time together, it didn't matter we didn't actually talk so much this time. We just felt we didn't have to.
She asked me questions though, older things that I even forgot that I told her once. I was suprised she still remembers them, I barely remember myself.
I realize that this girl is someone I never want to disappear anywhere. She has to be somewhere quite near that I can be sure she is alright.
We watched a korean scary movie called ''Wishing stairs''.
I really liked it. It wasn't scary though, just very tragic.
And ballet dancers there, ahhhhhhh ^^
I got home very late because it takes so long way from Vantaa to here : D
I didn't feel like sleeping so I didn't.
After sleeping two hours I woke up when my mom comes to my room and tells me my brother is coming. It was 5'am so I was pretty much dead.....
After that I couldn't sleep for hours -__-
Also I was shopping in Helsinki with my mom yesterday.
I found shoes, yay!
Also she gave me money and I bought two necklesses and a little cute bag.
Loving it! : )
I wish I could go back in time.
I wish I could go back in time, the time she was mine.
Yhyy. I miss being with her so much..
I feel absolutely great aroung her.
Still I wish things could be the same...
I wish she would be the same
and me too.
the OLD TIMES!
How nostalgic can I ever get ?
Sunday, October 25, 2009
sweety weekend
This weekend was sweeeeeet!
On Saturday I spent an awesome day in Helsinki city; playing tourist doing a lot walking around, going into the shops and taking pictures. Before all that, I went to grab my friend from Makasiini terminal, she came straight from Tallinn : DD
We walk around and ended up killing our feet. We found some very cool shop with awesome vintage stuff ! Oaaah it was expensive though, but lovely old-fashioned stuff.
It was freezing cold! We ate in the shopping mall and bought some cheap earrings. We went home and ended up staying there, watching a movie and eating some Estonian chocolate and Japanese candy!
This morning we woke up at 7.00 because we couldn't remember that it's the day when the clock goes an hour back so we thought it's 08.00 hahahahahahhaa! That happens to me soooo often ! See how well information actually gets to me ? It gets lost somewhere.. I just never know where..
Well, we still had a lot to do. We watched both of our photos from Japan, gggreat memories! ^^ We watched Kung fu Panda (in Japanese with English subs) which was great! And went for a walk (with our cameras) and collected some maple leaves (she made me a rose out of it, I never knew how to do it).
Later we did some origami (She made a horse and we both made bunnies thahahaha). And we chilled in the city for a while, ate ice cream and went to a Cybershop. Soon she had to go back to the ship so byebyes.
A lot of fun with Tuuli, my friend from Estonia. We make a great team and have always fun and interesting things to talk about. Ohh and I'm always happy to use ENGLISH ^^
She is so nice that I hope to see her in the future again. She doesn't live that far away anyway.. Next time I'll probably visit her! But she doesn't live in Tallinn though. Well, doesn't matter as long as there is something cheap to shop.
Yahhooo for international friends! <3
And how terribly I'm missing Tabea... I got a letter from her from Germany and almost cried when I looked at the photos she sent.
Just the only bad thing she coming here was that I totally had an overdose with chocolate... way over. Well, never perfect, ehhhh ?
On Saturday I spent an awesome day in Helsinki city; playing tourist doing a lot walking around, going into the shops and taking pictures. Before all that, I went to grab my friend from Makasiini terminal, she came straight from Tallinn : DD
We walk around and ended up killing our feet. We found some very cool shop with awesome vintage stuff ! Oaaah it was expensive though, but lovely old-fashioned stuff.
It was freezing cold! We ate in the shopping mall and bought some cheap earrings. We went home and ended up staying there, watching a movie and eating some Estonian chocolate and Japanese candy!
This morning we woke up at 7.00 because we couldn't remember that it's the day when the clock goes an hour back so we thought it's 08.00 hahahahahahhaa! That happens to me soooo often ! See how well information actually gets to me ? It gets lost somewhere.. I just never know where..
Well, we still had a lot to do. We watched both of our photos from Japan, gggreat memories! ^^ We watched Kung fu Panda (in Japanese with English subs) which was great! And went for a walk (with our cameras) and collected some maple leaves (she made me a rose out of it, I never knew how to do it).
Later we did some origami (She made a horse and we both made bunnies thahahaha). And we chilled in the city for a while, ate ice cream and went to a Cybershop. Soon she had to go back to the ship so byebyes.
A lot of fun with Tuuli, my friend from Estonia. We make a great team and have always fun and interesting things to talk about. Ohh and I'm always happy to use ENGLISH ^^
She is so nice that I hope to see her in the future again. She doesn't live that far away anyway.. Next time I'll probably visit her! But she doesn't live in Tallinn though. Well, doesn't matter as long as there is something cheap to shop.
Yahhooo for international friends! <3
And how terribly I'm missing Tabea... I got a letter from her from Germany and almost cried when I looked at the photos she sent.
Just the only bad thing she coming here was that I totally had an overdose with chocolate... way over. Well, never perfect, ehhhh ?
Friday, October 16, 2009
Let her smile for once, bitch
My day started really awkwardly. First of all, I was such a sleepyhead that I forgot to take my vitamins.. I was ready to go to school when I realize that somethings wrong with my right eye because I put my contact lense in and it the eye hurted so bad that I couldn't keep it open.. So I was wiping my eyes off because it teared so bad and since I couldn't keep it open, it was very hard to get the lense out. I so hate when that happens.. not very often though.
So I had a little shock because I first couldn't get it out of my eye but then I just took a deep breath and tried again and I got it off. The eye was red and still hurted so I just decided to get some more sleep that it would heal and that I don't have to cancel my plans for tonight. School is not that important, so I had to skip and just keep sleeping till noon.. haha.
I went to see my friend at her place. The train was so crouded that it made me hate trains-going-to-Vantaa even more. I got off and my friend was quickly there with her car.
We had tea and just chatted for hours. I noticed that I really had missed it. She was actually a little more talkative than usually, and she is one of the only ones that I can talk to very openly.
Then she had a call from her ex or not-ex. They really have some kind of on-off relationship and I really don't like that relationship at all. I think it makes my friend just miserable and that she has deserved so much better. The call was long and I was watching MTV, haha. Then my friend came back but I read her face very quickly and knew that the call had ruined her day. Well, we tried to catch up the converstation but then her phone rings again. Darn, it's the ex again. Then they talked even longer time (this time she was crying on the phone) and I was really getting bored.. Well, after that my friend apologied and offer me a ride for home. I was actually glad to leave, just too bad that the whole night turned like this.
I'm very disappointed. I just think my friend always gets all the shit on her back. She always seems to make the wrong decicions or just has a bad luck. I already told her that she should end this relationship but she seems to be just too desperate or something to not to do it. She always seems to think that everything is her faulth as well. I try to talk to her every time and stuff but.. Well, I cannot do a lot, she has to realize it by herself.
And I'm always ready to help this girl, she is very important for me eventhough we don't see often.
Anyways I had a nice time with her and a good day eventhough some shit happened. It's just how the life is.
Also I'm proud of myself for not eating all that candy-popcorn-chips-chocolate that was on the table in front of my eyes for a long time. I only took a couple, just to please my friend.
Tomorrow I hope that we will warm up the sauna. I have to relax hahahahaha.
So I had a little shock because I first couldn't get it out of my eye but then I just took a deep breath and tried again and I got it off. The eye was red and still hurted so I just decided to get some more sleep that it would heal and that I don't have to cancel my plans for tonight. School is not that important, so I had to skip and just keep sleeping till noon.. haha.
I went to see my friend at her place. The train was so crouded that it made me hate trains-going-to-Vantaa even more. I got off and my friend was quickly there with her car.
We had tea and just chatted for hours. I noticed that I really had missed it. She was actually a little more talkative than usually, and she is one of the only ones that I can talk to very openly.
Then she had a call from her ex or not-ex. They really have some kind of on-off relationship and I really don't like that relationship at all. I think it makes my friend just miserable and that she has deserved so much better. The call was long and I was watching MTV, haha. Then my friend came back but I read her face very quickly and knew that the call had ruined her day. Well, we tried to catch up the converstation but then her phone rings again. Darn, it's the ex again. Then they talked even longer time (this time she was crying on the phone) and I was really getting bored.. Well, after that my friend apologied and offer me a ride for home. I was actually glad to leave, just too bad that the whole night turned like this.
I'm very disappointed. I just think my friend always gets all the shit on her back. She always seems to make the wrong decicions or just has a bad luck. I already told her that she should end this relationship but she seems to be just too desperate or something to not to do it. She always seems to think that everything is her faulth as well. I try to talk to her every time and stuff but.. Well, I cannot do a lot, she has to realize it by herself.
And I'm always ready to help this girl, she is very important for me eventhough we don't see often.
Anyways I had a nice time with her and a good day eventhough some shit happened. It's just how the life is.
Also I'm proud of myself for not eating all that candy-popcorn-chips-chocolate that was on the table in front of my eyes for a long time. I only took a couple, just to please my friend.
Tomorrow I hope that we will warm up the sauna. I have to relax hahahahaha.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
clumsy morning, suprising evening
No school today so I took a little job ^^
There was a little girl (5 years old) caught a little cold/cough, staying home from the playschool so I went to take care of her for a day.
First she was very tired (just woke up) then afraid to talk to me (she only nodded/shook her head) so I felt a little frustrated from the inside but made it believable to look calm. I kept talking to her and all the sudden the ice was melted and I was her best friend : DDD And OMG she was cute, big puppy brown eyes ^___^ she somehow remimded me of myself being kid (just what I have seen from the home made movies from my childhood).
The day with her passed very fast especially when we watched Moomins<3 and I learned something new ! I didn't know that there's a Muumipappa's old school friend called 'Hömelö' that exist! :oo hahaahha! And we played domino and I peeled her hot dogs because she didn't want to eat the peel at all (just like me oldtimes!!) Well.. unfortunally I didn't eat the hot dogs myself because I don't eat meat at all ; )
When I left their house, I felt tired for some reason hahaha! Kids.. they have sooooo much energy that they make me jealous! I feel old ! and still so young at the same time..
At the metro station I saw a friend of mine. He walked passed me but didn't notice me. I was about to say hi but since he didn't see me and he was with some girl so I didn't say anything hhahahah.
I got home, ate (starving!!)... a lot. My mom made porridge so I just didn't have a heart to say no! Also apple pie..
And I put a new Marilyn Manson's cd on my computer. Listened to it a bit. I think I still have to listen it more to have an opinion..
Then I stalked one of my friend a little bit (looool, can't help it.. just can't) and noticed something interesting. I'm not sure what to think because I think it's either the best thing ever or the saddest thing ever and I'm trying to handle it now as it even it would be the bad news for me, how could it be good news for me at the same time.. -_- wtf am I saying.. well, just He is about to make my life very hard or make my life the best ever. I can only wait that he will say it more out loud.
It's a little scary.
Tomorrow school.. then shopping/hanging out and more school : DD
how interesting is my life again?!
There was a little girl (5 years old) caught a little cold/cough, staying home from the playschool so I went to take care of her for a day.
First she was very tired (just woke up) then afraid to talk to me (she only nodded/shook her head) so I felt a little frustrated from the inside but made it believable to look calm. I kept talking to her and all the sudden the ice was melted and I was her best friend : DDD And OMG she was cute, big puppy brown eyes ^___^ she somehow remimded me of myself being kid (just what I have seen from the home made movies from my childhood).
The day with her passed very fast especially when we watched Moomins<3 and I learned something new ! I didn't know that there's a Muumipappa's old school friend called 'Hömelö' that exist! :oo hahaahha! And we played domino and I peeled her hot dogs because she didn't want to eat the peel at all (just like me oldtimes!!) Well.. unfortunally I didn't eat the hot dogs myself because I don't eat meat at all ; )
When I left their house, I felt tired for some reason hahaha! Kids.. they have sooooo much energy that they make me jealous! I feel old ! and still so young at the same time..
At the metro station I saw a friend of mine. He walked passed me but didn't notice me. I was about to say hi but since he didn't see me and he was with some girl so I didn't say anything hhahahah.
I got home, ate (starving!!)... a lot. My mom made porridge so I just didn't have a heart to say no! Also apple pie..
And I put a new Marilyn Manson's cd on my computer. Listened to it a bit. I think I still have to listen it more to have an opinion..
Then I stalked one of my friend a little bit (looool, can't help it.. just can't) and noticed something interesting. I'm not sure what to think because I think it's either the best thing ever or the saddest thing ever and I'm trying to handle it now as it even it would be the bad news for me, how could it be good news for me at the same time.. -_- wtf am I saying.. well, just He is about to make my life very hard or make my life the best ever. I can only wait that he will say it more out loud.
It's a little scary.
Tomorrow school.. then shopping/hanging out and more school : DD
how interesting is my life again?!
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