What now...

I'm not sure how to handle things anymore.
Things are getting out of control, just before I thought that everything is gonna be fine. I felt good couple days ago, I was smiling and shining when I walked around the streets..

Well, now I got lazy and unhappy again. But still, when I think of it, NO PAIN NO GAIN.

So I bet I can handle this as well :] just now it takes a hell out of me, but soon....


I'll be happy again.

I just need three things: 1] new cell phone 2] new shoes 3] warm weather

So that's not a lot ! Especially... in the case that I'm going shopping tomorrow.

誕生日

I'm getting old... hahah! TOMORROWWWW!

My mom made a strawberry cake ^___^ It's so pretty ! I bet it tastes good as well : )

Also, tomorrow.. This birthday-girl travels to South-Korea, Seoul. I'll stay for 10 days. AWWWWSOME!

This is very great, I've always been curious about Korea. And I think there is very good chance to do great shopping ! I want pretty clothes and something sweeeeeeet.
Can't wait to see it!!


PS. Lately I've been watching so much 花ざかりの君たちへ so therefore sometime my brain fails to think normally : DDD

What I want

Heyy. This is just a little post.

I just end up making a little list about what I want the most right now.

- to be skinny. (this is my #1 at the moment)

- to have a long hair (this is really something that I've been missing... just the thing is that being skinny makes my hair usually quite bad... so I should really this time take care of my hair, eat some vitamins and just find out what is the most important substance my hair needs to be beautiful) Maybe I'll have to change my shampoo.

- a miniskirt that looks good on me. Hahahha recently I've been liking the ones with very stratched look, the ones that have been ripped and looks like it's falling apart a little. With hanging stuff hahahahha. Just without looking too trashy.. hmmm maybe I'll find hard time finding that : D

That's all<3

Awesome.

i JUST laughed a real laugh. This is gonna be good, I know it for somehow.

Lately I've been feeling soooo low but at the same time, last couple days I've felted that I could just easily be happy if I really want to. I just have to believe in happiness again.

I decided to try again, try harder this time. Get some positive thinking out of things around me.
I will start my diet again, so I'll get ready for the spring.
When I'm satisfied enough, I will go and shop some new dresses and clothes as a reward for myself. Because I deserve it when I will succes.

I got the new CD of HIM and I really am in love with some of the songs already. It sounds like a great record. And very rarely I even buy cds anymore.. it's just that I have all the CDs of HIM so i had to get that one as well.

Today I went to the job-hunting office or whatever it is... near here. I said that I would like to get a hygiene and alcohold server-passes so that I could work as a waitress in a restaurant or sell alcohol. They said I could get those and they would pay me for the material and exams. AWWWWESOME! I think it's uselful to get those, therefore it's a lot easier to actually get a job in reality. Also, I like to improve myself and learn new skills hahaha.

So if everything goes well, I could work during the summer and get experience and money for the future! yayyyy.

Then, soon it's gonna be one of my friends birthday. There's gonna a lot of new people, so I'm excited.

Also what brings me up is that it seems as the weather is getting warmer.. I just can't wait that all the snow is gonna be in the drains and the sun will shine and make it warm. Birds will sing their songs and grass and trees will get greeen! I love spring, I've always loved.

My birtday is in April and I will get to travel to South Korea during that time. I'm sooooo happy about that! I can't wait... and also, I have to go to Sweden to do some shopping and of course, take a cruise there.

I have even some more plans but I'm afraid to mention it yet. I want it to be sure first.

It's all gonna be good. As long as I have my hopes up.

Btw, the kid in the picture is soooo cute! I want to have a kid like that! Adorable!!


PSSSSST.
The reason for my laugh was actually a japanese drama I've been watching lately. It's just hilarious and very silly hahahah, it's called GOKUSEN.

New terrain

I have decided it.

This attitude has to change.

I want myself back again.


Yeahhh, I'm just gonna try harder. Be stronger, be independent.
Maybe some day I'll find the happiness.
I'm gonna take it step by step..

I started today.

This feels a lot better already

And I actually like some things about fall

like for example the leaves the sound when your shoe crushes them

and their colors of course

I also like the excuse walking fast/run everywhere because it's so windy and cold that you just want to get inside really fast

There is some 'feeling going on' only when it's autumn.