Can you run out of thoughts?

Btw,

Today I had this awesome idea so I sent a txt to my friend. She answered no-no. Tear tear, I wanted to have a party at her house..

AND WHY, OH WHY I have to

-write a good essay about me And at the same time feel like I'm lying and that I'm just the worst applicant ever and that they should not pick me

- write and read about EMOTIONS and FEELINGS and how do they reflect our ACTIONS right now when I should NOT think about them and just forget everything ? I first thought I should not do this essay but wtf, I cannot fail it so I might as well destroy myself and it's all better

Sad sad feelins :<
This time is the worst of the whole year !

I bet it's the fucking darkness, cold and just this shitful life here in the Northern Hell.

PS. Is it true that if u dig a hole deep enough, you end up to China? ^^
(I might be desperate enough to actually try that..)