What now...

I'm not sure how to handle things anymore.
Things are getting out of control, just before I thought that everything is gonna be fine. I felt good couple days ago, I was smiling and shining when I walked around the streets..

Well, now I got lazy and unhappy again. But still, when I think of it, NO PAIN NO GAIN.

So I bet I can handle this as well :] just now it takes a hell out of me, but soon....


I'll be happy again.

I just need three things: 1] new cell phone 2] new shoes 3] warm weather

So that's not a lot ! Especially... in the case that I'm going shopping tomorrow.

Easter's coming..

Lately nothing special.

I did some shopping (a turquoise t-shirt, blue cardigan or whatever and a long-sleeve shirt which is pretty cool ^^) hmmm, still needing some shoes and dresses maybe? : D hahaha.

And I already feel bad when I think of how many chocolate eggs I've eaten this year.. AND IT'S NOT EVEN EASTER YET GWWWAA!! but I never liked the chocolate that is made in somewhere middle Europe and tastes too sweet and yucky hahahah I liked the suprises though ! And I still do hahahahha! I got this cute watermelon eating Hello Kitty^^ and a tiny Moomin magnet hahahah!!
But the best egg is Fazer MIGNON egg! It's delicious!! ^___^
well, of course it is when it doesn't have a suprise in it.

Ohh and I first forgot that today is that stupid foolish day when people try to tell lies over my ears. Well, I have to say I didn't believe a lot of things since my friend a second ago told me something that I really shocked so much that I believed it ! She said that she got fired and I was like whaaaaat and already comfort her and then she tells me it was a trick lol. DAAAARN, this has never happendes before hahahaha! I'm always the one who can say ''got 'cha!''
But heyyyy I'm an honest person and I really hate to lie even on purpose : D so nooooo.

Today I got a little mad when I realized that Liquor store is not open on Saturday so I cannot get my sparkling wine -__- but well, that's fixable heheh.

Yayyy, tomorrow evertyhing is closed and it's gonna rain so I'm probably gonna watch a movie or two and eat more easter eggs.. eww.

Happy Easter! ^^^
I will write more about it later.

darn this Weather!

It's sad the weather still being so cold that I really don't feel like going for a walk -__-

Tomorrow I will see one of my friends but I still don't know what we are gonna do. This crappy cold weather just doesn't inspire me at all.. hahaha.
I would like to go and see AVATAR but my friend probably doesn't have money..

Shopping is also just boring when all the stores are so full of ugly clothes that you can only wear once... I don't like to buy clothes that are for ''wear once, throw away then'' !!
But I would like some shoes for the spring! And summer !

Since I'm moving to Scotland in September, I checked online some local clothing stores. Looks pretty good ! ^^ Still, even there, some of the stores are the same. Those local ones like Vero moda and Zara for example.

I booked an apartment as well!! Actually for a while ago already... I just got the papers done and paid for the deposit. It's pretty nice! I will have 4 other roommates, but I will be having my own bathroom. And it's close to the center! As well as close to the university! Actually, it's in the middle hahah. Awwwwwesome.
And I'm glad that I got things organized already pretty much ^^
Next step is to apply for SAAS to get my tuition fees paid hopefully.

Have a good weekend everyone! ~

Sushi !

Today's word is definitely Sushi.

I went to couple Asian food stores with my asian friend and bought some more stuff to make sushi.

Also I know now where can I find a cheap japanese green tea bottles which I absolutely love !

At my friends place we made sushi today : ) we put tuna fish, cucumber, eggs and carrots(!) in and it was delicius ! Although it was a slow process when we first had some trouble with the rice (that's what u get when there are 3 people in the small kitchen and the fourth person (a guy) is just hanging around and asking questions, making some funny but quite keep-your-mouth-shut comments and just eating all stuff he can find.. A little bit DISTRACTION, ehhhhh?! And then the fifth person just swearing i nthe front of the mirror.

Nahh, it was quite nice to meet my friend's sister's boyfriend, and also that there was some real life going on in that house. I'm so used to just empty and silent house so I really enjoyed having some drama around hahahaha! And I laughed a lot and just remembered how lucky I actually am when not being in the relationship like that anymore.

So it's all good.

Just my friend's friend got a little scared when it was so noisy. I met her for the first time and wow that girl is silent and shy. I thought I was shy or what but now I think again... and wow. People are just so different. But yeah, she was cute for sure, even though being so silent ! Or maybe just because of that...

And I remembered how I used to be so silent also. I'm just glad how much I have changed from that and it makes me smile.

Although, I can still be very shy around some people. But I'm totally ok with that.

Just the bad thing was that the friend of my friends didn't like the sushi that much. She barely eat one piece... and my friend also ate just couple. But I liked them ! They were really good ! Next time when I'm making those, I gotta get some tuna as well.

Still, I have to say that personally, my favorite sushi is that with REAL HUGE FISH PIECE on the top of it -sushi, with good rice and a little tiny bit of wasabi beneath the fish.

I just love my mom when she comes from work with that cute little sushi pack with her that includes 10 little sushi pieces, including some very good salmon and red tuna fish and some while fish one that I have no idea what's the name of the fish.. and it has even a little cute fish shaped soy sauce bottle with it ! It makes me smile the whole little package ! It looks so delicious!

When I got home I found a job that I can hunt next. Just guess what kinda restaurant is that !

Yayyy, shopping tomorrow.

Ohh and btw, I want to go see AVATAR, the movie !!

empty head

The tattoo guy didn't come today either : / last week neither..

I wonder if he got the piggy-pandemia.... or was just busy/lazy/sleepy/troubled
or just couldn't make it there.

Or maybe he changed his mind about the friday studies group......
Nooooooo : <
hope not!

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I also did some cheap shopping today.. my purpose was to buy some presents for Christmas, but well I only bought earrings and a hairband for myself. Just coudln't find anything...
But I got a great idea what to buy for my mom ! Just.. I need 40euros, or otherwise I have to take the 20euro one which one is not as pretty.
Hmm, DAD?! ^__^

i also got this huge and boring looking book about personality psychology... WELLL sounds interesting and stuff but it doesn't seem to be... when I open the book. It's rather scary when I know how much I have to write about it. YIIIIIIKS.

Well, I'm glad I almost finished another essay that I have to do first anyways. Just a little bit more.. gonna be ready tomorrow I hope!
Since tomorrow night I have no time for it...
I hope to meet my favorite girl tomorrow.
But you can never be sure when it's about her.....

...and me.

onetwothreefour

Haven't written for a while, I just didn't feel like it.

I have been down, very down lately. Too tired to do anything, also found that nothing is exchiting enough to actually do.. I also skipped school, so bad bad..

Load of work and it's GROWING all the time. It made me feel worse but now I decided that fuck that, I will take my holiday first ahahahaha. omg, this is really gonna be a trouble less than in a week
About GROWING.. I could also mention my ass, thighs and belly ... or as it feels. Shit, is that fucking scale lying to me ? It says that I had lost 2 kilos, yeah right what the hell.....

Yesterday and today
I went to 'Crazy Days', a big (and really crazy) sale in Stockmann.
I found some cool stuff (like I always do):

- black gardigan/sweater with buttons 10e
- black/dark jeans 20e
- dark blue zebra-striped hoodie 20e
- tiny and light purple umbrella a 6e
- dark blue normal long-sleeve shirt 6e

- a clock on my wall! It's silver and pretty, has diamonds hahah 20e
- Kiki's delivery service DVD 5e
- Twilight DVD 13e

YAHOOOO! I love stuff like that hahahaha. New clothes<3 And I was with my mom who is the best so she bought them for me<3

Tonight I have to do a little boring paper for school. Hmmm, since I got a book for it and it's gonna be graded as passed/failed...
and it's something about the law...
I'm not gonna spend too much time on it.

OAAAAH now I'm getting so hungry... we bought fish<3
FOOOOOD, NOW!

Ohh, I actually stopped eating wheat products. I eat less carbohydrates as well as sugar (eventhough that seems impossible since I'm a sugarmouse)
and today I cut coffee also :/ (which made me angry and sleepy all morning..)
Why? Simply because my skin has gotten so so so amazingly bad that I'm getting concerned..

I feel so ugly.. :''''<

25% positive

YAYYYY

I got a little cheered up today! : ) First of all, yesterday I found a pair of old mittens (?) which are perfect for this weather. Glad not to have to buy new ones ;) so I spent my money for new headphones, those kinds that are in-ear so they don't fall off. And they are BLUE<3 like my iPod!

In a fitting room, trying a pair of jeans on I felt a little frustrated when they didn't zip up but as the mirror there told me as well, I have so much fat around my waist and ass that I have to get thinner so I bought them ; DDD they were half-prize anyway and therefore if I want to use then, I have to be smaller ;) so brilliant hahaha!!

Also a weird thing is that I saw HIM! It's already two times on this week ! Call it destiny? hahha!! And this time he saw me aswell. I didn't even care about the fact that she was with a girl, I was so happy to see him ! But lol, he didn't look that happy to see me : DDD he looked suprised.

HAHAHAHA, I got a free Cosmopolitan -magazine by mail o_O well, I love magazines. Also, there are always beautiful people inside<3

Tomorrow I will visit my sister's. Probably spend a night too.. Yeaaaah one motive to go is that I can eat whatever I want there ( in this case, I can eat as less as I want ) and my mom is not telling me to eat more or bringing food under my nose.
We are gonna watch movies (Sic & Nancy and Wild Child ) <3

Probably before that I will buy some food for myself (diet Blueberry soup, diet Coke, Solero- ice cream<3)>

Yayyy, tomorrow no school so I will go to a GYM : 'D
Finally, I have a chance to go and my mom wants to so don't have to go alone.

Although, my school week has been amazingly slacking ! I didn't go on Monday, neither Wednesday nor today 8D But the thing is, I like my freedom and if I don't feel like going to school, then I just don't and I study at home (hmmm?).

I should write an essay.. but, how lazy do I feel? o__O

A day for failing..

I miss eating sushi :<
And lately my eating habits have been totally messed up. I only ate junk !! An too much comfort food : // The proof is that I tried on very cool jeans today which didn't fit me (my size from last spring..) I couldn' zip them!!
Fail :( well.. the good thing is, there is only one little piece of apple pie in the fridge and I bought my favorite chocolate today which didn't taste good at all and I noticed it was actually already went bad.. no longer fresh !! i was a little mad hahahahaha, how dare they sell quality chocolate in R-kioski for 2 euros and then it's some old crap, wtf!?!

Today school was alright actually. Only thing was that I was exchausted and that I had a bad habit of taking glances on his back, secretly.. I talked to a new girl in my class who seems very nice : ) and we were watching a video about Special Education. There were funny kids on the video : DD

After school I spent some ''quality time'' in a library by myself (being a big nerd surfing in facebook etc : DD) waiting for my friends to get there later. I only got 30minutes there so I tried to go shopping but as I said I lost my appetite for finding a new pair of jeans so I only bought a cute notebook where to write ^^

I thought I would be happy to see my friends for a long time. Actually I was but only the first two minutes.. after that, I wanted to leave. I don't know what's wrong with me.. It just didn't feel good to hang out with them, we have no more things in common and I feel that I'm an outsider who doesn't even wanna be an insider. Another thing that annoys me is that they are so irresponsible. Well, I should have more friends hahaha... Fail..

Since I got home I have been trying to write the final craft of my essay to apply for Universitites.. it's done, finally, but this time it's TOO LONG!! omg.. It was hard enough to write and now I have to take something out.. just.. Im-poss-ible !! :'''z Fail @ everything..

I got my Psychology books today<3 One is slightly horrible 'cos there is not really pictures or colors and it's very tiny print.. Another one is very cool and seems a good book with interesting stuff, yay!
Still.. haven't start my essay for the Special education class.. FAIL ! Well... hopefully tomorrow I will finally get the books from the library.. and just motivated enough to start (it will be night time when I'll have time.. -__- )

Then there is this thing I still didn't figure out. I just hope this one little punk would contact me and that he is not waiting for me to contact. I never call people ! And based to history of couple times.. he doesn't always give an answer to txt messages so I try to avoid that as well.Arrrgh. He's stealing my goodnight sleep.. : //

Tomorrow I hope to go to the movies.. I want to see the newest Harry Potter hahaha!

ps.. I hate blogger when it says that there is soemthing wrong with the html codes.. I'm too lazy to correct it and it's eating my nerves to fix it hundred times :p